Morgana's Blog-journal

Corinna

2005-02-06T17:25:00.000-08:00

Supposedly Corinna got one of these thingamijigs as well but I cant find her link. I hope she doesn't get mad at me for the previous entry. I was just kinda mad because I almost had a chance with Jeremy but she and her absolute HOTness came along...oh well...I seem to be doing pretty well. I dunno what's going on between me and Richard, he's acting like we're going out but we're not and things have been happening like we're going out but we're not...and it's awkward. He said he might do something nice for me for Valentine's Day but it's a surprise so I'm excited for this year's v-heart-day.

Much love,

MOFOgan

yeah

2005-01-19T18:57:00.000-08:00

so nobody reads this one so I guess I can write whatever I want

I'm mad at Corinna. Like I'm not but yet I am. And I'm mad at Jeremy. Yet I'm not, Yet I am. I really liked him and she knew that and like I don't blame them and I'm so happy for them. I just wish I was good enough for somebody ONCE!

Justin Small.....omg I talked to him again. At winter ball I said Hey to him and he said hey back. And again....today. In the library I was giving back my laptop when I saw him come in and so I entered the little "returny laptop room" and the moment I exited it, he was walking right past it and I seem to do that alot, just randomly almost run into him (Perfect chances to smile and say "hey" seductively without sounding like that....more sounding like suprised/out of breath) I am a genious. Then I saw him again in the school store and then again the hall, I followed him down the hall. Like not purposely, he was just walking down the hall and I was too and I was like....checking him out the whole way. He is SO FUCKING HOT! I want him so bad. He looked so cute at winter ball too...you have no idea. I want to marry this kid. he makes me horny. so very horny....want to rape him up against every space inch of wall in the entire school! except val's office...cuz' that's just creepy. But seriously though, he's just so beautiful. I love him so much! well you know...as much as one can love someone they've had like...one real conversation with and spoken to a couple times by exchanging "hey"s. OMG so hot....

but yea... ummm what else

cant write about some things in here in case somebody does actually flip here occasionally....you never know...

ummm I love Jane because she is the coolest. She just makes me laugh and makes life funny. It's a miracle that I can be friends with someone so beautiful/sexy/hot/amazing/funny/attractive and not only want to get in their pants. I just enjoy being her friend. I can't say that about some other people because there are some other people that are just SO HOT but straight and I'm their friend hoping to convert them. lol.....not anybody in particular..... I mean, I'm friends with them obviously for other reasons tooo I'm not thattttttttt shallow! I love being just friends with girls! But there are some other friends I have that are girls that I'd more rather "wouldnt mind" if they wanted to hook up and make love wildly in the rain...

so that was a little random...

well if anybody does read this:

I LOVE YOU!

SCARS! Papa Roach

2005-01-14T09:10:00.000-08:00

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that I care too much
and my scars remind me
that my past is real
I tear my heart open
just too feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cuz' you came around
why don't you just go home
cuz' you channelled all your pain
and I can't help you fix yourself
you're making me insane
all I can say is

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that I care too much
and our scars remind us
that the past is real
I tear my heart open
just to feel

I tried to help you once
against my own advice
I saw you going down
but you never realized
that you're drowning in the water
so I offered you my hand
compassion's in my nature
tonight is out last stand

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that I care too much
and our scars remind us
that the past is real
I tear my heart open
just too feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You should've never come around
Why don't you just go home
Cuz' you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
but you didn't understand
you didn't understand
you didn't understand
Go Fix YOURSELF!

I can't help you fix yourself
but at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
but at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with MY OWN LIFE!

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that I care too much
and our scars remind us
that the past is real
I tear my heart open
just to feel
I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that I care too much
and our scars remind us
that the past is real
I tear my heart open
just to feel.

i hate blogspot sometimes

2005-01-13T08:52:00.000-08:00

this one is so much more difficult that livejournal.

Green Day - American Idiot Lyrics
Don't want to be an American idiot.
Don't want a nation under the new mania.
And can you hear the sound of hysteria?
The subliminal mindfuck America.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the idiot nation.
Everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.
Well maybe I'm the faggot America.
I'm not a part of a redneck agenda.
Now everybody do the propaganda.
And sing along in the age of paranoia.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the idiot nation.
Everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.
Don't want to be an American idiot.
One nation controlled by the media.
Information age of hysteria.
It's going out to idiot America.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the alien nation.
Everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue.

i never post here any more do i?

2005-01-12T18:12:00.000-08:00

umm:

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
that I care too much
and my scars remind me
that my past is real
I tear my heart open
just to feel
--Papa Roach

I walk a lonely road
the only one that I have ever known
dont know where it goes
but it's only me and I walk along
I walk this empty street
on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk along
I walk alone, I walk a....
My shadow's the only one who walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's needed
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then, I walk alone
--Green Day

http://www.livejournal.com/users/morgana_le_fay3/

2004-11-27T13:18:00.000-08:00

Can anybody hear me? here waiting....
Can anybody see me for who I am?
Can anybody love me, despite myself...
Does anybody already care...and afraid to tell me
And afraid to tell me...
because of who I am: myself.

~me

Well I'm not made of steel...but your secret's safe with me...

2004-11-26T15:22:00.000-08:00

I love Our Lady Peace, I actually like a LOT of bands....but particularly Our Lady Peace, but that's doesn't even come close to beating my all-time favorite band which is Evanescence. Time for a good Evanescence quote:
Show me the shadow where true meaning lies, so much more is made in empty eyes.

And now a good Our Lady Peace quote:
Well he wishes that he could escape this, but it all seems so contagious, not to be yourself and faceless, in a song that has no soul.

If you're an OLP fan and realize I quoted them incorrectly, I'm sorry. I'm just too lazy to go back and play the song over when I'm enjoying "Not Enough" right now. SO PUH!

LOVE TO ALL!
Peace.

livejournal is being stupid

2004-11-26T09:59:00.000-08:00

livejournal is being really stupid and not letting me login...stupid computers....

Well, it's Tofurkey Day!

2004-11-25T11:53:00.000-08:00

And the rents hate me too much to get me anything special for me to eat, so instead. They FLUNG TURKEY AT ME! REAL TURKEY! stupid non-vegetarians... oh well...time for more lyrcs...but it's some weird poetry this time

Poem:

random inspiration of the soul
something, I fear you’ll never show
the end of my heart breathes a song
the dreamless singing goes on and on
my hand outstretched shakes and aches
the song echoes sadness in its wake
the dream I had ends in pain
I hope to never dream it again
will you please stay with me
and ill forever love thee
you are worthy, I realize it
I wish I could show you my regret
just please forgive my honest hate
I give you love in a handshake
arms reach out, what? a hug
I understand now….there is love.

Morgana is depressed sometimes...but yeah good poem. LOVE TO ALL AND PEACE!

lalalalalal

2004-11-24T20:02:00.000-08:00

i randomly felt like posting again... so LALALALALALA lol i think I'll write random lyrics:

My black backpacks stuffed with broken dreams
20 bucks should get me through the week...
never said a word of discontentment
fought it a thousand times but now, i'm leaving home

Here in the shadows, i am safe, i am free
ive nowhere else to go but I cannot stay where I dont belong

2 months pass by and it's getting cold
i know im not lost i am just alone
but i wont cry, i wont give up
i cant go back now
waking up is knowing who you really are

Here in the shadows, i am safe, i am free
ive nowhere else to go but i cannot stay where i dont belong
Here in the shadows, i am safe, i am free
ive nowhere else to go but i cannot stay here, oh...

show me the shadow where true meaning lies
so much more is made in empty eyes

"Exodus"-Evanescence (the best band alive)

Love to all and Peace!

BLOG!

2004-11-24T19:35:00.000-08:00

Blog..... lol im a bloggin.....this is about the same as livejournal and i prolly wont use this as much...I might just post the same things in both... lol. LOVE TO ALL!